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March 31st, 2006
10:38 am - yikes..
wow.. so my darling ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=91.6) yaffa & mick_hale are finally deciding to make their dirty little relationship legal. All those years of teasing her that she is a cradle robber have finally been proven to be correct. not that I am one to talk !
Yaffa is doing her best to convince me to stick my things in storage and move back home to Israel. I want to. I really do. But Usher wants to go to a certain college here in NY and I am not sure myself if I am ready to pick up and move back. There are too many mixed emotions that are involved.
Israel has both wonderful fabulous memories, current and past, as well as some horrible horrible memories that I would rather forget.
In Israel, I developed my art of bulimia. how to throwup with out anyone knowing. how to induce vomiting just by thinking about it. Arguing with my parents. Dropping out of high school. bombs exploding near me and buses blowing up in from of me.
On the other hand a bunch of wonderful beautiful memories were also created there. Finding a wonderful great bunch of friends (yes yaffa was one of them) living with 2 of the most wonderful strong women that I have ever met. Learing to control my Bulimia, reconciling to a certain extent with my family. sitting in the Old City Plaza breathing in the "clean" pure air, late nights in Jerusalem, Eitan :) , Bonkers. and finally my wedding with the Jerusalem setting in the background behind my Chuppa. sitting on the side of the mountain and watching the sun set in a swirl of golds, bronze, oranges, peach, fiery red, muted pinks and eventually fading into that smooth dark royal blue.
sigh. I want to come home. good over rides the bad. and the emotions that came up just now are so overpowering. I have been lucky enough to attended the weddings of some of my closest friends. 2 of the top importants ones tied the knot FINALLY a little less than a month after myself and now my closest of closest friends is about to embark on one of the most exciting journy of her life... and I will be there to share it with her (well to a certain extant anyway!) I cant wait to hug her and hold her for just a few minutes and breathe in her comforting smell.. you can take the baker's daughter out of the kitchen but you can never ever take the essence of the pureness of the baking and cooking out of the baker's daughter. Yaffa will always smell like freshly baked food to me. If I could only describe her colors they would astound you. I can't wait to meet Shmuel finally. and I hope that he will live up to some of my expectations that I have for Yaffa's intended. (Just like Yaffa had for Usher, which he didn't live up to at first and is now putting in the effort to change and to what he needs to do to be a better husband and not end up on Yaffa's most wanted dead list and mine to for that matter... )
Current Location: computer lab in the bowels of FIT
Current Mood:  loved
Current Music: wind beneath my wings :)
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