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October 28th, 2010
11:30 pm - random thoughts
So much has happened since I last posted. I never have time to sit at the computer for more than a second & typing on my Blackberry is not ideal.
Since Usher has started working late, occasionally doing overnites and weekeds, I started borrowing DVDs from the library to watch during middle of the night nursing sessions. A while back there is this show that was on HBO called Big Love. Its about this polygamist family.
I started watching it (we cancelled our cable just after the 1st season ended.) And I had this random thought..
Why is polygamy illegal, but when a guy cheats on his wife and has kids with his mistress, that's ok??
Current Mood:  confused
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August 22nd, 2010
01:32 pm - Tracht Gutte VeZein Gutte
This past Wednesday night, a guy who we have been friends with (and we are friends with his family as well - his son is Mati's age and his wife is also due 3 days after me) text messaged me to see how I was doing. Knowing his wife has been sick with a sinus infection I asked how she was doing. He texted me something back regarding Usher taking this new job. Since I was walking with Mati at night and I dont like to walk and text, I messaged him to call me..
He calls and basically asks me why Usher took the job by the other agency. He went on to say that Usher screwed him (the guy) over by leaving the old job since he had given Usher a reference and that Usher burned his bridges at the old agency and is now looking like a jerk for leaving for another place. I tried to explain that it was a difficult choice but one that had to be made due to our bad financial situation. I tried explaining to the guy that I havent received my last 3 or 4 paychecks from my old job, Usher is only making $12 an hour and we have bills that need to be paid. HYe starts asking me why we didnt think about our financial situation before? I explained that Usher had been out of a job for 7 weeks and we had no money to pay our bills and were recieving shut off notices for the gas company and the electric company. That I didnt have money to pay for Mati to go to school.. and that when Usher was offered a job at the old agency it was the only job that was there for him so he took it. After all , any job is better than nothing! and that when the new position came along offering more money, well we felt it was more ideal for Usher to work for an agency that pays more, offers room to grow and offers help paying for childcare..
But the guy kept on asking why we didnt think about our financial situation before.. and that is when I lost it.. I got pissed and told him that I hadnt planned on losing my job because of my due date, that Usher didnt plan on getting laid off from an amazing paying job ($600 a WEEK!!) because the guy realized he could pay someone w/o experience only $300 a week for the same job. I told him that we didnt plan on being in this situation.. we could've planned to high heavens but G-d has different plans for us..
He and his wife have 1 child and are due the same time as us. They have VERY LITTLE debt (just their mortgage as far as they had told us , so no student loans or CC debt) , receive some financial help from his parents, own a house and they both have pretty good jobs with benefits and great pay.. Yet, they bitch and moan how they have no money and they are broke and dont know how they are going to pay bills..
I told the guy that we didnt plan on having to go to a food pantry to get food when we were completely broke over the past few months, that I never wanted to be the recipient of the Soup Kitchen that we previously had given tzedakah to. I asked him how he thought I felt when we got shut off notices for gas and electric and how we felt when we had to call the landlord to tell him that we were going to be late with rent. again.
I told him he should never ever be in our position.
but he kept going on and on how Usher screwed him over etc..
I hung up on him. and then went up and cried and cried and cried. and then ending up having contractions for about 3 hours and till I could calm down.
I know that his wife is stressed about their personal financial issues and that she is 9 months preg, yet I would never dream of making her crazy the way he made me. I am still very pissed at this guy expecially since he doesnt even think that he said anything wrong to me.
He sent me a text message kind of apologizing. but only after my bro-in-law called him up and chewed him out. He still doesnt feel that he was wrong tho. and told Usher as much in shul.
Current Mood:  grumpy
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January 31st, 2010
10:32 pm - coping skills aka venting
I haven't written in ages. Time seems to get sucked away from me.
I wake up at 5am everyday regardless of when I go to sleep. I have to get myself ready, then wake Mati up no later than 6:15am so I can get him dressed. We have to be out the door by 6:50 or 7am the latest. We get to school by 8 or if the bus and train run late- by 8:15am. We are in school till we leave at at 4:15.
I have to do dismissal (even tho I was told I didn't have to!!) that means we leave at 4:30pm. We don't get home till 5:30 the earliest.
After teaching 51 students (5th grade in the am and 1st grade in the pm), I am DONE by the time I get home. It is all I can do to get home without screaming at the obnoxious people on the train or the bus. Like the bitch who yelled at me to "shut my little bastard up". (Poor Mati was exhausted and wanted to be at home already) It took all my strength not to slap her. I just replied "would it make you feel better if I beat the shit out of him?" And then ignored her nasty comments and continued to try and calm Mati down.
I hope we can get a car sometime soon so that I don't have to continue this shlep everyday by public transportation. Or that my husband comes to his senses and let's me send Mati to a school here in Crown Heights and I get a job here in the area. The only plus now is that I get a discount for tuition since I teach in the school and Mati is getting a good secular education.
Ugh. But the shlep!
Anyways. I have been using every free moment to clean my apartment which got completely out of control. I just can't seem to get it all done. I am hiring a friend to come on Sundays to wash dishes and fold laundry and whatever else she can get done while she is here. I am gonna start cooking and freezing. I just don't know whatelse I can do to make things easier. Ush is working fulltime and then goes to school everynight (fulltime) and he doesn't get home till 10:45pm. Oy..
I am too tired to feel anything ..
Is it so wrong to want to be a stay at home mom?
Current Mood:  crappy
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May 25th, 2009
11:53 pm
<input ... ><input ... > I am soo excited about our upcoming visit! although I do have a whole bunch of things I need to accomplish before we we leave, I know that I am going to enjoy myself on our trip and finally be able to kick back and relax!
We finally found a stroller for our travel needs - http://www.nextag.com/Inglesina-Swift-Stroller-Moka-633257188/prices-html
we will be purchasing it right before our trip. As much as I would love to shelp our Baby Jogger, I just cant shlep it on the buses myself with a 35 pound struggling toddler.. a long story about our baby jogger to follow in another post...
We are also in the market for a carseat. we need one for next year when Mati starts school (we will be getting rides in to school every moring by car) so we figured we should invest in one now. anyone have ideas on a good one?
My blankets for the Yonah girls are still being made, I have one almost ready to be sewn together and I hope that I have time to crochet and sew the second one.. I of course chose a very complicated but cute pattern. oh well.. they will have to share for a little..
I am off to write my last paper and study for my last final...
tata
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Current Mood:  cheerful
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May 1st, 2009
06:50 pm - Chicco stroller
Chicco Capri (C6) Why Shelly recommends it: Value. Another excellent option that also comes standard with a shoulder carrying strap! Compact umbrella fold, two-position seat recline, all-wheel suspension, and a storage basket underneath. A carrying bag is also included with its own shoulder carrying strap as well--helpful for those times you might prefer to check your stroller with your suitcases. Ages 6 months to 3 years. Weighs 11 lbs. Find it online at: Amazon.com Babies R Us
I think that this is the stroller that I am going to get for our upcoming truip. It is $54 on amazon.com. I am going to go to babies r us to try it out on Sunday to see if I like it..
Any comments on a great inexpensive travel stroller?
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January 15th, 2009
05:51 am - failure to launch
So last night did not go as I had planned. Dinner was made and ready to eat at least when Ush came home from work . Mati wouldnt go to sleep till I laid down with him.. then my tiredness kicked in and wouldntcha know it ... I konked right out too.
Today is a half day at school and my winter vacation starts tomorrow! YAY!! I plan on finally getting my apartment in order. I need to buy big black garbage bags to throw out half this crap and to find a place to bring the clothing that we no longer use . A friend of ours is getting Mati's recent hand me downs. Another reason I am missing my family.. I wish I could go over to my sister and just bring her Mati's old clothing since I know with her new little boy, she could probably use it too. .. :( oh well.. I will take my mitzvot where I can.
I am working on convincing Ush that we need to make Aaliya sooner than later. We want to pay off our credit card debt and pay off some other debts as well . Every penny we earn is pinched to stretching point. All change gets thrown into a bucket and then counted up at the end of a month and exchanged to pay bills.. I have bought some needed things with the change too - food shopping etc. while saving some money from our paychecks and paying bills.
We would make a small lift taking on the necessary objects, and sell the rest. I am not interested in raising my children here anymore. How can I teaach my child to be a good Jew when I hardly know myself anymore? I want my children to breathe in Jerusalem air and having it coursing throught their bodies. I want them to be able to hop on a bus and ride down streets named after people in Tanach or to visit sites mentioned in Tanach!
I am hoping that in the next year or 2 we will finally get out buts across the ocean. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=91.6) yaffa and mick_hale brought us back information from Nefesh b'Nefesh which was very helpful! We dont want to be completely financially dependant on my parents or Nefesh when we make Aaliya.. Hence the mad rush to save..
I am safe in the fact that for apartments, we can rent Ush's friends furnished machasan for at least a month or 2 while we get settled or we can send mick_hale and/or yaffa during their "free" time to locate apartments for us(hahaha!!!). As for Jobs- I can always work as a teacher, In the fashion insdustry, import/export etc.. Usher is planning on going to college and finding a part time job and tutoring as well.
our options are very very open.. If I could just get him to nail down a specific date....
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January 2nd, 2009
06:59 am - Elmo
 
MatanEli meets TMX Elmo
A Crochet Elmo in the process of being created..
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December 6th, 2008
06:30 pm - Our new daily video
M is learning to use the potty! Hooray! and in honor of his new obsession with Elmo................
www.youtube.com/watch?v=PqLMcyUFrSA
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November 30th, 2008
04:28 am - shluffy baby
my 23 month old child thinks that it is funny to keep me awake ...............
i can wait to get him his bed this week and a safety gate. then he can amuse his own self.
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November 23rd, 2008
04:28 am - Breathe
I need to take a deep breathe or I am going to freak out.. there is way to much going on in my head...
We were going to buy a hi-riser (day bed, trundle) that my parents so graciously offered to pay for. I have been cleaning out my previously cluttered apartment, but have stepped it up even more since I want to buy the hi-riser..
Well tonight, we went out to a Jewish music concert in P.S. (waves to yaffa 's sister) and my aunt calls me up to tell me that she found me a free almost new hi-riser! the catch is we have to pick it up tomorrow morning! ugh... my house is a wreck.
I am pulling an all nighter with a sick, congested, teething baby so that we can have a place to put the hi-riser tomorrow..
We have to race to Williamsburg after moving the beds and buy an inexpensive yet nice toy at Amazing Savings for a birthday party at 2pm. What do you get a 2 year old????
I still have not gotten paid although my check was supposed to be given to me on the 15th... and U's boss said to him he might have to take a pay cut ( i hope he was joking.. ) While we have a bit of money saved, it wont last long for a family of 3 with bills.
To top things off I need to talk to the principals about a student that stole something from another student (second graders!!!!!) . I really couldnt do it on Friday! I dont want to get this boy expelled. I know how it feels to get kicked out of school but on the other hand this kid is a bad bad apple..
breathe.. breathe...
The best thing that happened this week was that I saw the Dynamic Duo on WebCam.. well not them.. but their momma's belly! and we spoke forever ! for FREE! yay Internet!
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